Wednesday, June 08, 2005

so wth did dey influence ..i wanna noe.......

i noe tat u r online now.. its juz tat u din sign on to msn.. well.. fine!!
riz frm da start.. i dn thk dey did influence mi at all??.. in wad sense??..
ask urself.. da wae u tok to karen n us is totally diff.. juz take last fri as an eg..!! ters bascially nuttin for us to tok abt... is onli when karen APPEAR.. den u started to tease her n etc.. happily tokin lyk i dn exist??.. shld haf go home straight away.. da wae u tok to her n mi is totally diff can??.. since u noe u wun haf da mood nor wadeva.. why did u ask mi to eat ice-cream in da st place?.. can u tell mi wad exactly went wrong??.. n oso wad n how dey influence mi.. if dey reli do?? i wun actually go n comfort karen when she is down n wadsoeva??.. sometimes when rayne is so pissed wif karen.. i will oso sae stuff lyk karen is stressed tats why she did tes n tat??... as for da GOOD FREN thing.. i admit tat i did ask karen to ask rayne to go back n help.. n oso asked rayne to go back n help karen.. hopin tat both side can gain?? but im wrg.. maybe im da one whu let rayne suffer frm all tes shit??
so im actually da hypocrite la??..is tat wad u were tryin to sae??
if tats so.. im reli SORI.. CAN??.. MAYBE im too soft heartd at times..
now den i realised tat all da thins tat i did .. bfast? liang cha??.. maki??.. food n stuff??.. is to bribe u??..
as for trapped
myself? wad r u tryin to imply??... do u noe how hurt i m after seein all tes.. maybe i still dunno u well.. or in fact 'i dunno u at all'..
so all da stuff u haf been tellin mi all tes while is fake?? even ur blog??
"'ve told you all along that i'm serious about you,
and everything i've told you it's really really true;
i may joke and laugh with everybody else,
but only with you my heart truly swells;
i may be nice to everyone i know,
but i never treat anyone like i treat you so;
i dunno what u think of it,
but i'm genuine every single tiny bit;
i know i'm limited in many many ways,
but i only wish you joy every single day;
cross my heart and hope to die,
to you alone i never lie;
it's you who make the sun of my world shine,
the wind so soft, the rain so kind;
to see of yours the happy smile,
i'll crawl a thousand and a mile..."

i miss my sam.. da old him.. at least at tat point of time i dunno tat he is fake........
nalanalaa na tried to smile on 1:07 AM