Thursday, July 05, 2012

2012

Yes. It's the yearly post agn.. I started this blog when I was merely 18? And now I'm in my mid 20s.. That's how time really files.

So what happened from last year July till now? A lil update..

I'm still stuck in the same event company (the reason why I used stuck in this content it's bcos it's sucks!). For career it's pretty stagnant, i don't know what i want and I'm not sure I can get the same amount if im to go outside. But one thing for sure, I still slog like a cow.. Nothing much to comment, I'm still as bz as ever. I went for my first biz trip - Jarkata. Was meant for 2, together with my boss but she went off on the third day and I stayed alone for the next 2 days. A very different lifestyle I would say? I think i properly get a heart attack if I am to work there. Pace is far too slow.. So so slow that I though I alrdy spent weeks there. Perhaps is their culture? I nvr like to drag my things.. They take it too slow. And for the first time in my life, I missed my flight! Was stuck in the jam for a good 3hrs30mins! That's enough for me to fly from Singapore to Jarkata and Jarkata back to Singapore. And I spent 200plus from my own pocket to come home. That's how stingy my company is despite it wasn't my fault.. And also bcos of this trip, I allow myself to fall into the scary deep graveyard agn. Why did I believe in those cheap words agn? Hasn't I told myself not to? Not for once but many times.. Hurting someone and in return being hurt. Who to blame, no one but Sheena Chai.

Yes, I was hurt another time by the same person. The damage is so huge that words are really cheap to me now. Never was i someone who believes in happily ever after, but this whole incident made me realised that how much impact one can made with the words that was said when one was confused and in despaired. I allowed myself to do that.. I Thot I really meant Sth but I was not, how devastated I was.. Only I know the pain. The Phuket trip was the worst trip ever. I pick myself up.. But the damage will nvr be healed.

Im grateful for the bunch of great friends around me. As usual, I'm not the sort who like to disclose my feelings. But best distraction is to let yourself occupy with activities!

Kampong - yes my 637. I was very proud to say that the 17 of us went batam in my previous yearly affair post didn't I? But, it's no longer the same as before. People no longer take the efforts to appear at bday celebrations or gatherings anymore. The days were fun in the past but those who did their part, we can see the effort. As for those who didnt, I'm sorry but it's just too bad. We are awaiting for the new come member - Daylen Bay 'le le'. Didnt I just mentioned Alex and Ah Qi got married in the last post? =) Dear and Sam too tied the knot just last week! It's good to see the couples around you made it through this process <3

Bs
We seldom meet up but we know the heart will never part.
My bastard, the biggest decision in his life so far - to pursue his dream in a foreign country all by himself. Meaning I lost my late night supper kaki and weekend swimming kaki too.. My friend for the longest time, the one who will nvr fail to be there when I needed a shoulder to cry on.. The distance did not drift us apart! I went to HongKong and visit him during his bday. A tourist tourist kinda celebration instead of endless drinking session was fun. I still hv my ah boon!

For the past year, I started to filter my friends list too. I realised who are those real friends who will stood by you regardless up or down and who are those who will only thk of you when they needed you to be there for the stake of being there.

Many people come and go in your life, but it's those who stay regardless who you are are those who you need to treasure in life. I'm thankful for those who are still by my sides.

I'm blessed.

Labels: Yearly affair

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